As much as I love Idaho, I feel a major change on the horizon. As many of you know I started CoCo Glo Bar 5 years ago out of the trunk of my car offering $25 spray tans. I was able to create the career of my dreams and while many obstacles such as a pandemic, tarnished partnership and an extremely toxic and abusive relationship almost took me out, I am still standing here showing up the best I can for you all every day. To say I don't feel defeated most days is an understatement, but none the less I show up. While I am extremely grateful to serve my community, I do have the unwavering feeling that my community no longer values what I have to offer. I have worked tirelessly to give back to my community all the while being pushed to the side for someone cheaper or closer to their home. This creates a self-doubt and does make me feel slight regret in helping others start their own sunless business here in the treasure valley or allowing some to come into my glo circle and just take from my cup without pouring anything back into it in return. I don't have a husband or partner that can pick up the slack when things are down, I don't have money stacked in the bank because my ex took everything from me, I have spent the last year trying to rebuild my life after it was almost destroyed completely even furthering my education to expand on the services I offer, and I still feel like it's not enough. I still get the "wow you're so expensive" comments and it's truly one of the rudest things that has been said to me. So, I have started looking at new communities to serve. I never thought I would leave Idaho, but it's starting to look like I might have to for my own self-worth and sanity. I don't know how much longer I can stay and serve a community that simply doesn't see me or my worth anymore. It's an extremely bitter pill to swallow and it's really hard to digest most days. Seeing clients that used to be so loyal to me go to my trainees while it's great to see for my students it's a true shot to my heart because at the end of the day had I not poured my all into that student who's to say they would have a business to serve these clients at all. While I don't take credit for anyone's success, there was a reason these students sought me out specifically and to see the disloyalty from not only them, but previous clients is really unsettling. I only have so much I can give before my cup is completely empty and it's running low for sure. I have always been extremely honest and open and while also optimistic these days it's harder to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I love what I do, and I want to continue to do it, but I want to do it where I am appreciated. I also think we have come to a time where people are starting to undervalue because of the state of or countries economy which in turn causes panic and I understand that too.
I write this with a heavy heart because I feel after 5 years of consistent service the community I love and hold so dear no longer cares for me anymore and it's heartbreaking for me. So, this may be my last year of CoCo Glo Bar servicing Idaho and the treasure valley community. I want to build and thrive, and I just don't see that happening here with so many people undervaluing what I have to offer. I am so appreciative of those who have stuck with me and continue to support me, but unfortunately in this day and age it just isn't enough to sustain the business moving forward. I have extended my lease at my current location for one more year and after that I don't know if I will extend further, but what I do know is that I will not cave or become victim to the woes of not being good enough. I know I am good enough; I have been in this industry for over 12 years, training over 50 women across the country (10+ here in Idaho) to create sunless empires of their own, and I am extremely great at what I do because I have fire and passion for it. I hope things change and people start to not only see my worth, but also their own, yet I don't plan on holding my breath for it. Things are expensive now, trust me I know, and while I don't discuss politics, the reality is our economy is down the drain and it's causing many people such as myself to reexamine what they are willing or can spend their money on. I just want to live a comfortable life where I am not struggling to pay my bills and can enjoy the little things in life. I am not one who wants lavish things, I just want peace, love and comfortability. I just want to be seen and appreciated like most other people. If you made it this far, thank you for all you have done for me. Even by reading this little bit of truth you have shown that people still care about me. So, I will continue to work hard and be the BEST version of myself I can be, but my truth is my truth and I feel unless things drastically change for the better, I will be moving on with CoCo Glo Bar somewhere else.
Cheers to another year down, and here is to hope for a better future for all of us. XOXOXOXOXOX, Mama CoCo